elizabeth's rants

Tried playing the piano..fingers don’t seem to move along with me
Vincent once told me that if you take anything for granted, it will be taken away from you. Is it coming true to me? Piano Exam pieces are now so impt to me, but yet Christian songs no longer sound the way it used to be. Should I tell Ivan again that i want to stop playing for JG?Don’t think I can, the empty feeling inside me. I know it but I don’t want to do anything about it. What’s going on with me. Putting my whole time into studying?It’s only wednesday, and my mind is already telling me that I don’t wanna go for JG.

Tried reading my PDL book, it doesn’t cooridinate with my mind

We had rehearsels today in school, and most of us were caught by surprise as we thought that there weren’t any rehearsels today. Oh well, we skipped lessons again and this time is was the whole day. I managed to slip out for physics practical but it was lame..looking into a mirror and drawing lines. So tired during the whole event, was yawning away like obody businesses.We went through both Acts, very smooth and everything. Teacher’s didn’t interrupt or anything..nice!

We had mass prayer meeting in the afternoon from about 2-3pm..the presence of God was so strong in our midst, and I’m sure most would agree with me.

In 2 more days, the actual event would come, scary..No school on friday for us! the principle decided to give us a day off (half a day actually) coz there’s rehearsels on thursday till about 6pm, we’ll probably just die there..Oh sigh,having a bad headache rite now..should i skip chinese tuition? Oh maybe not..Gonna be skipping 3 tests this week(geog,physics and chinese zuo wen) wah liao..so i’ll hafta take all this next week!! how on earth am i gonna do tt..oh well

When I was young  I’d listen to the radio
Waiting for my favorite songs
When they played I’d sing along
It made me smile

Those were such happy times  And not so long ago
How I wondered where they’d gone But they’re back again
Just like a long lost friend All the songs I loved so well

(*) Every Sha-la-la-la Every Wo-wo-wo
Still shines Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they started to sing So fine

When they get to the part Where he’s breakin’ her heart
It can really make me cry Just like before
It’s yesterday once more

Looking back on how it was In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad So much has changed

It was songs of love that I would sing to then
And I’d memorize each word Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me As they melt the years away
                                                  
All my best memories Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry Just like before
It’s yesterday once more

Didn’t feel like going to school today..couldn’t probably breath properly and had some sharp pain around da chest. Oh well..went back to sleep till about 10.30? It’s been a llooooonnnnng time since i’ve been given a chance to actually sleep till so late. All my holidays have been taken up by the musical!

Now to think of it..IT’S JUZ ONE MORE WEEK B4 THE MUSICAL!!!! Time flies so fast. In a matter of 7 days, the biig thing would arrive! & and in a metter of 9 days………the musical would be over………. memories that would stay behind…..i think even if we play the smallest role in the musical, there would still be a weird feeling of leaving. No more week after week practices..no more hearing the soloists sing and the seeing dancers practicing their steps. *poof* everything would just end…….

We had rehearsels today at acs..the place is huuugggeeeeee! They’re carpark can probably take up the space of our assembly grd and basketball court..and they’re pool is huge too..The concert hall is nice..gives a vry cozy feeling coz all the seats are close together. So those who have gotten the balcony seats, fret not. It’s a actually a better view from the top..i think so..hehe

Am very tired now..just sat at the keyboard for like 3-4 hrs but also dunno why felt soooooo tired. Had so many things to carry (the keyboard, cords, etc etc) So had to ask many many pple to help me carry things..haha. But i think it was a very successful and fruitful day..next monday: full dress rehearsels!!

Got back my chemistry results..woohoo didn’t too badly. 27.5 upon 35..first time sia..next test i better pray harder..this time’s test was relatively ez as all the questions were from the TYS..and we did e questions b4.so lame right..haha

Had to cook my own dinner just now..what else? Instant noodles..the egg smashed on my fingers coz i couldn’t get it to open. Didn’t know when was the right time to put the noddles in..heng my bro was there or else the water would probably have evaporated off with all the excess boiling..But i’m still proud of myself for being able to cook..my only dish..Instant noodles..oh well

THink i’m gonna sleep now..so freaking tired and there’s PE tmr..yuck..softball oh well. My hands can’t coordinate properly now..as they’re quite numb after the playing and carrying the keyboard around the freaking big school..ahahahaha! LIGHTS OUTZzzz

Wenna and I decided not to go for music lessons at TKGS because it was raining (even though by the time we stepped out of shchool the rain had stopped) Oh well..have a math test tmr so can’t afford to waste the whole afternoon there.

All the cast dancers musicians and choir wore the musical t-shirt..really nice. Took the bus to school & i didn’t see anyone wearing it, so was beginning to wonder if i heard wrongly on sat. haha..heng uh saw someone wearing it as we were approaching school. Phew~Everyone was up on stage to sing “The Father’s Hand” while ms Loh taught the song. As usual, I was at the piano. Oh well, thought they were going to play the cd. haha..was reali nice when everyone cheered together at the end of the song. Was really weird though, we sang the song about 3 times to get familiarised & everytime they song ended, everyone cheered. haha

Was packing my A and D math file just now..realized I haven’t been doing well. Not as though i didn’t know that but it suddenly occured to me that i REALLY have to start pushing myself. Not just for Math but for every other subject. Aiming to score well for end yr exams, to prove to my parents and myself that I can manage my studies even though I’m involved in church or whatever. My goal: Reward myself with ballet shoes if I get top 10 in class! hahaha..