elizabeth's rants

it’s been a week of hell and torture.

With what i’m doing, i really dunno how i can even secure a place in a local uni. i’ve half given up hope on SMU, now just hoping to slip into NUS thru the back door.

i messed up my prelims big time.n somehow it doesnt feel “okay” anymore.it’s the last exam b4 the A’s and it’s totally messed up.am i really still living in disillusionment?am i really still hoping for the same miracle tht happened during the O’s?

i need to get started.i want my grades back.

it really scares me that in 1.5 mths, the A’s are coming and i’m still not exactly prepared.sometimes i wonder if i’m lying to myself tht MJ always sets tough papers to make us scared.but now i think i’m wrong,cos pple ard me ARE doing better and i’m not.

I need you GOD.

on a lighter note, i got a date with my indian fren NIKITA tmr and we’re gonna watch HAIRSPRAY!!!yay yay yay.i’m so excited.oh and in one hr plus time, i’m gg to huiling’s hse to see her baby gal!cant wait =)

After this week,its gonna be motor on and motor go all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay i’m out.

HMM i havent journal-ed since like nearly a MONTH AGO??!!

Thanks to the stupid mugging. this week was rather successful, every morning gg to school at like normal day sch time and staying there till dinner time..non stop stuyding. NOT BAD EH! butttt…still haven study finish. SIGH! how siahhhhh

okay..cant stay longer here. maybe go SLEEP?? haha i’m tired..everyday only 5 hrs of sleep okay! and i’m PUTTING ON WEIGGHHHTTT!! =((( i know its a fact lah, so i’ll really appreciate if you dun say it so directly to me. it’s alr bad enough. i got a giant tummy and flabby arms and double chin (which hasn’t gone away since sec 4) whatever.

Tmr’s OUR one yr one mth! HMM wonder if that blur-king rmbed. we didnt really mention about it . HAHA oh wellssss.