Just when i felt my heart was crumbling, when i thought i could no longer hold to what i was feeling.

There’s a orange box at the right hand side of this page, click on the song “HEALER”.

Its written and sung by a guy named Mike Guglielmuci. He’s a great man of God. Amazing song-writer. But he’s stricken with cancer. And he sung and wrote this song in faith. When he performed this song at the hillsongs concert, he was attached to a life-support system on stage.

His testimony.

I’ve heard it a number of times ytd and tdy. But tonight it just hit me so hard. The words and the meaning behind the song. I went online to check out history of the song and came to forums of people describing how they just fell to their knees and cried out to God when they heard the song. Exactly how i was feeling just a few moments ago.

“Worship can lift you from where you are. It can bring to a higher place when u begin to magnify God and worship God and choose what you magnify. Its powerful when u can just get the name of Jesus and lift God up, higher and stronger cos that’s what He is.”

Mike G.

Painting is tedious.

Especially when your room is tiny and you cant happily shift things ard.

I should have taken photos when mum and i were actually painting. Everything was everywhere ( as can be seen from the pink picture..)

Orange is BEFORE, Pink is AFTER.

Yup was so tired i just plonked myself on the floor to lie down, then i looked out of the window and woohoo! Awesome sky! Sometimes on days like these, I wished I had somebody to use as my model  casting his/her gaze out toward that awesome back-drop.

A few days back, Mum realize Dad hasn’t used his DFS vouchers which he won from golf-ing. So we went to make good use of it, by using it on ME.

I love the little patterns on the strap. So pretty!

Prissy came over last night (and this aftn) to try shoes. And she watched me eat dinner at 9pm while watching Channel 8 Volleyball show. At the same time, I was telling her the gross emotions I’m having now. The feelings that I shouldnt be having. I’m terribleeeee..but thank God I have God whom I can rant it out to, and of course I thank God for THE best friend who still loves me even though I’m so terribleeee. Thanks Babe.

Met her again this aftn to go sign up for driving!!!!! YAY!!! We’re gonna get through BMT BTT together babe!! Cannot fail okay, or else we’ll be like the ultimate losers man. Cant wait for the test! You should have seen both our excitement when we went to sign up, i think the uncle probably thought we were abit siao. But YAY!! we’re doing it together so we can go down to UBI together for the tests. YAY YAY YAY!!! (sense my excitement? :P )

 Came back to finish packing my room. Threw away a whole load of things. Even things that I always thought I would never throw, I threw =(

 But mum said “With the old things gone, the new will come”.

Speaks for so many things huh. I rmb her saying that when the break-up happened. Brings back so many MEMORIES. HAHAHAHHAHAHA i think I’m MAD.

Kay, it still looks like alot of things, but this is considered very very bare already, especially for my desk. Well, at least I can actually see the brown wood of the desk. Hahaha! Hopefully it stays this way

I’m in love. Check out the love of my life. Aww he’s so cuteeee!!

Just when I was on such an emotional rollarcoaster this week, Ivan Chan led this song in service tdy and God ministered to me through this song.

You are my light and salvation
In whom shall I fear
You are the strength of all my days
Of whom shall I be afraid
Though war may rise against me
Of this will I be sure

That I may bless the Lord forever
I’ll bless your holy name
Yes I will bless the Lord forever
I’ll bless your holy name

Lord it is you I desire
It’s you that I seek
To live with you in your house forever
Beholding your beauty
And in the time of trouble
Of this will I be sure

That I may bless the Lord forever
I’ll bless your holy name
Yes I will bless the Lord forever
I’ll bless your holy name

You asked me who do I
Say that you are and I
Say that you are the Christ

Son of the Living God!

Yup, whether in the good times or in the bad, I’ll bless His name forever. God is good ALL THE TIME. Even though I found hard to even speak to God this week, but His very presence was always with me. Thankyou Lord! (:

Last night at timbre was good with Alvin, Rachel, Lu, Av, Gordon.

I’m so not gonna touch alcohol again because it makes my mind go bonkers even though I really tried to cover it up. I think if I hada full cup, I would go mad straight away.

But it did surpress all the unwanted feelings I’ve been having the whole week.

MANEL WAS THERE! Oh man, was so shocked we screamed like louder than the music. Hahaha was so good to see her after sooo long, like PE lessons in MJ or smth =x I’ll go back there to find her soon. Hehehe

Cabbed home after that with Von,Lu,Gordon. Thanks G for going back to sengkang then srngn, but  you are so loser luh, got a credit card that doesnt work. I had to lend him mine so that he could pay the fare when he reached back. zzz.

I’m impressed I’m actually awake at 9 plus. I’m gooooddd. But i’m a lousy drinker luh. Please don’t give me alcohol agn. =x

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ELEANORRRRR!!!

On a side note,

those going to NUS/NTU seem to be having balls of fun in their FOCs, and everyone moving into their halls. Its like wahhh so fun. I wished i was going that way too. But I guess I made the choice and now I’m just gonna have to deal with it. I’m gonna study really hard and BE A NERD. Yup, there’s that certain tinge of jealousy but I guess moving on makes things better aye?

Chris just got accepted into Raffles Hall too! omg, i’m nv gonna see you again girlfriend =( HAHAHA that idiot is like having funnnn divingggggg at tioman now luh..no fair!!!! I wanna go too!

OH on a HAPPIER note! I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yea sure. HAHA Dad has FINALLY allowed me to  go get it. SO BTT HERE I COME! haha super lag i know.

I decided to be really moody in school today cos I only had 3 lessons.

I’ve got nobody to talk to and the internet is borinngggg after a while. And there’s nobody to talk to online.

First lesson was sec 1 music. Let them watch national day MVs followed by MVs from Camp Rock. I’m such a cool teacher huh!

Sec 3 Geog. I cldnt be bothered. Sat in the class for the sake of formalities. I didnt care what they were doing.

Sec 1 music. I couldnt find them so I came back to the staff room to blog about my days event. GREAT.

And then i get my pay. Awesome (:

Prissy tagged me on this so out of boredom at work i shall be crappy

1. The person who last tagged you is:
Kee Wen Minn. What’s “tagged” anywayy..i dont have a TAGboard. But anyway that woman was the last to comment on my WP.

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
ex-classmate, shopping advisor, dressing advisor, cheapo unties.

3. Your five impression of him/her:
awesome buddy
mad about fashion (duh..she’s in TP design)
freaking SKINNY
seems to be always clubbing
I love her cos she’s ready to go get drunk on sugarcane with me (:

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Breaking me out of the crying syndrome!!!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
Erm..i don’t rmb her saying anything wise anough to be memorable. HAHAHA

6.If he/she become your lover, you will:
HMM i’m one lucky person!! HAHA nah kidding. I’m straight. But yes, GUYS OUT THERE WHO ARE TALL AND HOT, she wants you and you can have her too (:

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
Erm not to dress so sexily?? HAHAHA JOKE AH!

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
Forgive her and become lovers again. (:

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
She stole my boyfriend. HAHA

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Stop being emo when we’re together so that we can go back to our “ahh..how ah!no guys want meeee”

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
AWESOME ((:

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?:
No comments, not really bothered either

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are:
To a small tiny extent, i kinda love my “bo-chap” attitude..sometimes. But then again, its not always good. I love the way i can easily forget things, so whatever misunderstanding or dislike towards anybody, i kinda just forget it so no anger. BUT when i actually get angry, that’s another story.

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are:
Dominance. Its not something i HATE (i ♥myself), but its something i should improve on. I suck at handling my emotions and always seem to be crying =( but truth is, i really hate crying!!!! Its very tiring.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
like Jesus (:

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
to my bestest buddy PRISSY : i love you for who you are. Even tho we have too much in common such that it becomes our repelling point, we’ve learnt to accept it and glad about it! i lovee youuu

Ele: hello to you in australia. Continue to skype me. HAHA

WM: thanks for all the advice i needed on dressing! Else i risk getting ostracised right

Nik & Jace : thanks for being the pple who brought up my mood last friday, i really needed it (:

Ced: the shopping partner whose budget is wayy above mine. Thnks for being that caring buddy always! Bring me to NDP can?? HAHA or go bird park =p

Chengo: For the super long sms-es and all the concern you’ve always showered on me since JC! No more emo days! YEAAA and baking soon okay!

Gordon: Despite making me cry the most, you’re a wonderful person to be with when we’re friends (: thanks for everything and all the concern all these while!

Chris: You don’t even read my blog but who cares. You’ve been my source of entertainment these few months. Glad you finally found ur laptop case (which is just a plain black one!!!) that you’ve been looking for months

Caleb : You never fail to knock some wise/serious words into my head. THANK YOU (: Have a great farewell/birthday party okay! And erm can have pool party?HAHA

Avonne : Always asking me if i’m okayy when u sense anything wrong. What would i do when u fly off

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wished to know how they feel about you
I have so many friends and you want me to choose ONLY 10?! Hahahaha….
OKAY I’M NOT GOING TO DO THIS BECAUSE I’M GOING FOR RECESS NOW. (: