elizabeth's rants

When I saw you standing there,
I about fell off my chair.
And when you moved your mouth to speak,
I felt the blood go to my feet.

My one and only lawyer friend got married ytd! ((((: Been looking forward to it since she flashed her engagement ring. The gorgeous bride had a simple wedding ceremony in church and we girls were just busy oggling at her gown and her really really long ‘train’. Sighhh… i love weddings (:

 

Girls with the gorgeous bride

My fiance. (HAHA)

Mr MIA, John HO!

Judahhhhh and moi. Girls in Black!

Jeremy

The girs and John Chee! (st-EVE!!!)

 

Roamed ard United Square with Judah before leaving for church. My heels were a killer. Been quite some time since Judah and I sat down to talk and talk. Hehehe meet up soon kay! Nik’s b’day dinner was postponed cos our dear Shikin injured her toe! Please get well before Raya! Heh. Came home after service feeling soooo tired but very undisciplined me got stuck to msn/internet and stayed there till 1am. As most of you would have seen on FB, Lynette Soh and I are ENGAGED. LOL we cldnt wait for our turn after attending Yanni’s wedding! Was MSN-ing with JonWong,Judah,fiance and UNTY JENNY. hahahah hilarious and it’s gonna be one conversation i’m gonna rmb for a long loooonnnggggg time!! Cant put the convo here cos its wayyyy too embarrassing!

 

F1 finals tonight! I wanna gooooo!!!! To get that cheap (expensive) thrill!

 

 

 

 

 

I think the lyrics of this song is just..weird. By LOBO.

 

Anyway, TLBC graduation ytd was fun and at the same time, brought back many many memories for me, and i’m sure for the rest as well. From arriving earlier after school and rushing into the toilet to change and comb my very messy hair, to watching the graduants run through the walk-in and rehearse for their mini skit. Was exactly the same as the time we had our own graduation. Sigh.. memories.

The graduation was awesome. Worship was an awesome time of 3-4 simple songs that invited the presence of God. Great worship leader + an awesome worship team. Just like our batch too! HAHAHA~

 

 

Location : SIM HQ Tay Eng Soon Library.

 

In the span of the last 3 months, I’ve sent off 3 friends and a sister. While I am not exactly looking forward to Rachel leaving next Feb, on the other hand, it’s time for her to go start her studies again! Sent Leb off at the airport 2 days back. It wasn’t tearful or anything, but I am going to miss him alootttttttt. The kind of crap we came up with while in Tungling and also in Philippines. And he’s the one i really rant it out to when i’m angry. Our cam-whoring while feeling sooo bored on the plane, so much so that the lady next to him requested to take a photo with him as well. Hahaha. Your intelligent remarks, your very detailed budget for our trip. My smart-ass friend, I’m going to miss you! Carry that crumpler bag we got you kay! Even though I somehow cldn’t imagine you carrying a crumpler initially, you proved me wrong. You’ll be the coolest guy at Oxford. Oh, and help lynette and I organize sprees for Topshop!! HAHAHA

 

I somehow forgot/didnt know that Chris reads my blog, so it’s veryyy irritating when, after not meeting up for a while, i tell him something and he goes “Oh, i know. I read on your blog”. O.O Makes our conversation very interesting huh. SO HELLO CHRIS. And Hellooooooo to any other annonymous pple reading my blog.

 

This morning was the last day i’ll be helping out at Tungling’s thursday devotions/chapel. The feeling was quite nostalgic, like when I was back there at the beginning of the year. Everybody was hyped up and looking forward to graduation that night. How Simon announced to the class that “somebody needed more time to make her hair bouncy”. Hahaha i’m so glad, we still get to meet each other quite regularly, esp the same few of us. John, Jem, Lynette, Chris, Judah, (Caleb). The rest of you join us more often puh-leaseeee. I hope it stays this way, or else I’ll be emo each time i think about the class of TLBC, SOM, Term 1, 2008.

Hello world.

 

“GET REAL” conference over the weekend was great! Even though I was initially discouraged by the numbers, but that did not matter. Each of us there was there for a purpose : to know more about the desires of God’s heart. Ps Chris Long, an awesome speaker, was there to share for 3 sessions over the 2 days with us and he is truly a man after God’s heart. The conviction that he has in his heart is awesome and I learned much from his life. Led worship on Sat’s night session with Justus. Hoho, first time leading a youth service man. I cant coordinate jumping,clapping and singing into a mic, neither do i have the stamina to do so. But at the end of the day, I thank God that He was there with us right there and then. God moment!!!

 

PRISCILLA and ELEANOR. I <3 you  two forever. It sounds random but yes, I want to say it.

 

Lately, I’ve gotten inspiration from a certain somebody who’s been encouraging and pushing me along, to be a “better man”. Haha even though we’ve just met not long ago, but man, it’s really nice having someone to believe in me, believing that i can go out there to “CONQUER THE WORLD”.

  

Tution’s gonna stop until the end of this month cos the kid’s house is undergoing renovation. Then it’ll be EVERDAY for the month of OCT. Sounds really retarded, and not very worth the time and money, but I that’s the work of tuition. SIGH. I will make myself enjoy it!!!

 

I just saw Gordon on TV. Haha hilarious. He’s with his friends at the SG flyer area watching soccer and because of the tiger beer premier, they’ve got some lvie telecast there. So funneh cos unlike everyone else on tv who was wearing the Man utd jersey, he was in a maroon puma shirt. SO EXTRA.

 

I’m looking forward to this week. More things to come, more things to learn.

 

“I thank god i’m in love with my best friend”

I think people use this phrase abit too loosely. Yes. Loosely is the word. And when people use this, I feel like asking them “Did you fall in love and THEN become best friends or were you guys best friends who fell in love”.

 

So fine, I’m kaypo. Whatever.

 

The last 2 days have been ———. Yup that’s it. Like neither up nor down, quite happy with it.

 

Went to watch WALL-EEEEE with sister desmond ytd. HAHA. my new friend/sister/bestie for sale. That retard dared me to buy front row tickets and so we ended up there. what a joke. the counter-girl must have been thinking “hmm okay..a wee bit psycho”. And YAY! finally used my POPCORN card to get the discount on tuesdays. Hahaha! Like FINALLYYYYY. Same feeling I got the first time I ate at Gelare on a tuesday.

 

Anyway, Wall-e was alright. I didn’t want to watch since it came out in the movies cos I thought it was really retarded to watch a show that had no dialogue except for “wall-e” and “eveeee-a”. But anyhows, because desmond thought it was gay to watch cutie shows with his guy friends, we went together. Wall-E’s kinda cute–in the way he’s so self-sacrifising and how all he wants at the end of the day, is to hold Eve’s “hand”. AWW.

 

Moving on, went walking ard after the movie to talk rubbish. And isit such a big deal if I don’t-know/forgot where LIDO is. TSK. Walked through Fort-Canning and its so quiet there at night, passed a pub outside the SG Art Musuem and the singers were awesome. Continued walking and talking until we ended up back at Cathay area. Sat somewhere, people watched and talked more..about life. Haha. People watch=china men. Haha desmond has this THING for chinamen. totally <3 them to bits eh?

 

POSC test tmr. HAHA. I just pray and hope I dun flunk it. FIRST TEST MAN, can you imagine how demoralising it would be if i failed it. *SCREAMS*

 

On a literally lighter note, i wanna FLY. like FLY. REally really FLY. Like a BIRD. But as for nw, I think the only thing closest to FLYing would be the FLYer. Anyoneanytwo/anythree/anyfour wants to go mad in one of the capsules with me? Play catching or something.

A Better Man says:

yo

A Better Man says:

guess what

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

?

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

wat

A Better Man says:

i’m getting married

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

riiight

A Better Man says:

really lah

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

to who?

A Better Man says:

u dunno one

A Better Man says:

next yr u come back in time for the wedding

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

lol

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

who are u

A Better Man says:

wah lao

A Better Man says:

ur sister lah

A Better Man says:

duh

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

shot gun?

A Better Man says:

ya unfortunately

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

from tungling ah

A Better Man says:

no lah

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

how old

A Better Man says:

29

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

HAHA

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

funny hor

A Better Man says:

…….

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

trying to match up huh

A Better Man says:

why u don’t believe

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

picture?

A Better Man says:

don’t even have please

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

propose or forced to?

A Better Man says:

OF COURSE FORCED TO LAH

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

why u not crying..haha

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

got ring?

A Better Man says:

how to cry over msn ?? no ring

A Better Man says:

only got wedding ring

A Better Man says:

on the wedding day

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

wah damn cheapo leh

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

rich?

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

OEI

A Better Man says:

he’s avg lah

A Better Man says:

at least working

A Better Man says:

got stable job

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

lol

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

wat name

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

or u aso dunno

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

wedding day then know ah

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

how many weeks pregnant?

 

A few hours later….

 

 

 

 

guess wat

A Better Man says:

what

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

i kinda

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

hv a boyfriend here

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

almost lahj

A Better Man says:

REALLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYY

A Better Man says:

wth

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

HAHAHAHAHA

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

loser

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

-.-

A Better Man says:

WAH LAO

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

HAHAHAHHAHAHAa

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

HAHAHAHAHA

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

loserrrrr

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

hahahahahahhaha

Lil’ Miss Princess says:

damn funnyyyy

My Sister thinks she’s damn cute. How?

So anyways, today was basically a mix of emotions, very extreme in fact. I think I can go insane. 

Happy things first.  FUN at Irene’s hosuewarming!! Despite the fact that I was called AUNTY by pple who were older than me -_- and Irene and EJ telling everyone they could mess up the house since I was cleaning up the house. But it was fun WII-ing with the old-ER pple! They’re so hilarious and EJ had to endure my screaming…again. Shall just lock myself up in his sound proof room next time. Was having so much fun I asked my dad to go home first so that I could continue playing with them. Hehe hehe. Sounds so nice right.. but SIGH the deeper reason that I wanted to stay there was so that i wouldnt have to think about a certain THING.

That’s where the other extreme comes in. I wonder if the saying “All good things come to an end” is a valid statement. Or maybe it only applies to things and not People. Can you imagine “All good people come to an end”. What a joke. In my case, i wonder if IT was good and so came to an end. I would like to think of it as something I didn’t fully regret, but, yet, there’s so much disappointment in it. Okay it’s well over, so MOVING ON…..!!!

Thank you Prissy Su for being such an awesome person and friend even though I’m quite a loser and really bad person for choosing not to tell you about THINGS.. But thank you, despite me being such an idiot, you’re still there for me. And even though your mum thinks i’m a loser too, you still stand up for me. HAHA.

Might go back to Irene’s house tmr. Hehehe self-invite, NOT! She invited me Shall see what happens after school and my tuition kid has yet to reply me what time’s tuition tmr. ZZZ.

ツÅÐÊlineee.  says:

i am ADELINE HERE!!

A Better Man says:

i know you are adeling

ツÅÐÊlineee.  says:

loving you

A Better Man says:

adeline

A Better Man says:

Hahaha

ツÅÐÊlineee.  says:

every single minute

ツÅÐÊlineee.  says:

MUACKSSS

 

 

This is random but to my dearest girlfriend C (you know who u are), i missyoushitloads.

 

 

 

 

 

Much things to do, much things to consider.

 

Passed the BTT, haha YAY? lol after doing the e-trials, i was thinking to myself “IF I FAIL, IT WOULD BE A JOKE”. But the e-trials really helped alot. Get used to the qns. No, actually get introduced to all the questions they were going to ask. Hahaha so driving is gonna started in OCT! Yayyyyy but oh wells, gotta start in the circuit. Hopefully I dun wreck the entire UBI. Thank God i passed BTT! Now gotta prepare myself for FTT. haha that would be like …. more difficult man. FAITH. I can move the mountains, I can do all things through Christ.. woohoo!

 

Today’s service was awesomezzxxx. L.T Jayachandran spoke about Christianity in the modern world. Its relevance and stuff. It was forum style so there was this qn asked about “what happens” when we as Christians keep sinning. So L.T related it to our personal relationship with God. He said ” If we keep sinning, despite knowing it is wrong, and making no attempt to stop sinning, then it shows that we have not had a real personal relationship with God“. And I thought it was soo soo true. How can we say we’ve had a personal relationship with the HOLY God, and yet keep doing things that displeases Him. If your loved one dislikes smth that you do, it’s just insane if you repeatedly do it, only to disappointment the other person. Yup so that was the part that I really took away. Very interesting.

 

The week has gone by quite dully. The last 2 days were the worst thanks to something that went really bad.  Sigh. I’m wondering if sometimes I live in self denial about certain things. I gotta learn to trust God and put my hope in Him alone. Not gaining security or getting answers from man, but in God alone. That’s where my freedom in Christ is. He is a.w.e.s.o.m.e!!!

In about 2 weeks time, there will be this guy coming to speak in my church regarding Homosexuality. He used to be a homo himself but by the Grace of God, went back straight, started a family and now is in church serving.

 

Recently there was a full spread cover on Transexuals in the newspaper, covered nearly 8 pages, featuring open-transexuals like Leano Lo and Thai-boxer Nong Toom. So why am I even talking about them? I’ve always had this interest towards homosexuality and the whole issue about gender. It’s something I’ve felt strongly towards since early secondary school days. Maybe the fact that I come from an all girls’ school also adds to it.

 

I don’t have any particular hatred towards transexuals, and neither do I condemn or insult them. After all, they’re human beings who are lives given by God, nonetheless. However, I’m not saying that what they’re doing is totally right and justified. So who should be declared “allowed”? I guess its all about the choice that you, yourself, make. Some truly believe that they were a “woman stuck in a man’s body” and hence decide to go under the knife and endure the transition. In this day and age, people now condone such behaviour. Although they know it is still socially unacceptable, they have slowly come to accept it, or more likely, they simply ignore them.

 

Is there a need for sex change just because one feels that he is a “woman trapped in a man’s body” or vice versa? Well, I believe alot of other factors contribute to such a situation. For instance, a man who is more effiminite than average may have to succumb to mockery of being called “gay”, “pussy”, “sissy”. Do this play a part? Simple as it may sound, this societal influences do play a part in a person’s behaviour Such in the case of suicides, many assume that it has to do with the personal thoughts and irresponsibility of the individual. But step back and look. As Emile Durkheims puts it, suicide is not an individual act but a social one due to : Excessive social bonds or Inadequate social bonds. Similarly, these unknown social bonds leads one to believe he/she should undergo this transition.

 

You probably won’t expect a grown man complaining “he called me sissy!”.That’s just … WEIRD. I believe many of them lack this avenue where they can express their confusion openly, and hence end up trying to conclude things themselves and to a certain extent, psycho-ing themselves to be a “woman trapped in a man’s body”. I believe this state of the mind is known as being self-deluded.

 

The only issue I have is with those men who start a family, have kids and then decide that they’re a “woman trapped in a man’s body”. It totally blows my mind. It was a few days before I read the articles in The Straits Time that I was watching “Gone Missing” on tv and the case happened to involve a man who had decided that he was female after getting married and having two kids. I was like “OH wow that’s interesting”, but it was only when I saw the article “When Papa became Mama” in the papers that I realized the reality of it.

 

Frankie Ler became Fanny Ler after seven years of marriage and fathering of a daughter.  

 

And to make matters worse, Frankie, now Fanny, told The ST that the first person he counsulted was his 10-year-old daughter, whom he loves most. I was thinking..isnt it bad enough that she would eventually lead an abnormal life having 2 mums??  (FYI, the couple ever divorced before all this even started but continue to have joint custody of their child) And there he goes ranting how his daughter gave him her fullest support. It kinda irked me out. What does a kid know at the age of 10? Probably mathematics, english and science, not the seriousness of her father actually deciding that he was “woman trapped in a man’s body”.

 

Yes, everybody should be a given a 2nd chance in life. But to take things to such an extreme, to physically hurt yourself and to emotionally make those around you suffer, no, I don’t think you should be given a 2nd chance. So quit complaining that you cant get a job or of the stigmas that are attached to your type. You made the decision, live with it.

I really thank God that each time I get hurt, each time I feel like I’m gonna tear myself apart, God sends someone to talk to me about random things cos I guess He knows I hate the lonliness.

 

All to Jesus I Surrender

All to Him I freely give.

 

There’s sth keeping me worried, keeping me bothered. But Lord, I give you everything. All I am I surrender. Cos nothing else will do.

 

I need to catch up with my studies. Bye bye.

 

To Rachel : your maniacal look + my very seductive looks (:

Everyone has a dream

The dream of a Happily ever after

 

Been a while since i lost blogged. Shows how boring my life has been, since i dont blog about boring things. Haha. So anyway, one week break from school this week. Well, i guess i tried to make full use of it. I’m beginning to like IBM studies. Still trying to get the hang of writing essays though.

 

Met up with some of the tungling pples on thurs night for dinner cum Caleb’s farewell (again!). Was one very very good night. Its nights like these that I rmb I still have a LIFE. Many topics that sprang up here and there, interesting ones yea? Like what we played when we were in kinders or pri sch, and somebody’s weird actions of how lego man moves his “arms” and lynette’s “lego man cant drink from a cup cos he cant bend his arm..” Yup, these retarded things make me happy. So there was alot of laughter and laughter and random singing of b’day songs to caleb.

 

Headed over to ROOM FULL OF BLUES where Gilbert and his band was. Awesome music! But somehow I still prefer Gilbert solo. sorry, very bias. N Chris was like ‘’somehow i cant imagine Gilbert in your methodist church.” Hahaha. OH gilbert gave me a ROOM FULL OF BLUES t-shirt today! the design is awesome. Totally love it I wanna talk about this really funny incident that occured at lil india mrt station while zing and i were running for the train. But….i’m too lazy. So if you’re interested, go to zing’s blog.

 

FINALLY went out with Avonne tonight~! YAY! Cant believe Rachel and I desperately went to find unty lois to ask for permission to let Avonne out. Hahaha! OH WELLS. So yes, settled for dinner at “Changing Appetites”. I was seeing stars the whole night cos there were 3 cameras flashing away at every dish that came to our table. ZZZ. But what Avonne said was true. The food there requires us to put so much attention into it-cutting the burgers, wrapping the chicken…we were so pre-occupied with the food, we cldnt concentrate on having conversations. LOL but we did at the end of everything! With our desserts that didnt quite require much attention. heh. So the night ended with great company of the cell and awesome laughters and retarded conversations. love it! i’m gonna miss you loads avonne tan!!!